Enriching his life!

A little about today before the next verses....
Today I was not virtuous. I was not a precious jewel. I will be the first one to admit it. I yelled at someone on the phone today for a local utility company about a dispute and said some not to nice things to them. No cursing, or screaming, a harsh tone was used. I was shown in the minutes after the phone call that I am NOT perfect. What I am not perfect this is news to me me right.....No I knew I was not perfect, but God definitely let me know I was not being virtuous and I was not acting like a precious jewel. Even though my kids did not hear the phone conversation with the local utility company, the tone I used and what I said was definitely wrong. I am a big enough person to admit that, and that's the first step in having God TRANSFORM me into the Virtuous woman he designed me to be.

What I asked myself today..... Today after the not so nice phone call I asked myself a question.
     "Just because my girls aren't around is that a way for me to act, shouldn't I be acting virtuous in everything I do?" Wow, talk about a Conviction alert. Once again Lord I hear you LOUD and CLEAR. I need to be the same person in front of my girls as I am when they or no one else is looking. Am I being that person? Looking back on the way I spoke to the person what I said and how I reacted no I am not the same person. I am one person in front of my girls and another person elsewhere. This needs to change and it needs to change now. I cannot truly be a Godly role model for my girls if I am fake in front of them, of all people to be fake in front of my kids are not who I should choose. I shouldn't be fake at all. I need to be virtuous in everything I say and do, whether or not someone is watching, because God sees how I behave when no one else does, and how would he have liked my behavior? He let me be aware immediately after it happened that I was not being a precious jewel and I was by no means being virtuous, but he knows I am a work in progress and I am trying to become that virtuous woman he intends for me to be.

His heart trusts in me?

According to scripture I have some big shoes to fill in order to be a Proverbs 31 woman and wife. I will greatly enrich his life? I will not harm him? The way God says this next verse made me stop and think. 

Proverbs 31:11-12(ESV)

The heart of her Husband trusts in her and he will have no lack of gain.

She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life.

The NLT states it as the following:  her husband can trust her and she will greatly enrich his life

God, you have made it so I enrich the life of my husband? Does Hubs truly trust me? Have I given him a reason or doubt to truly trust me? Is there any thing he is holding back because he doesn't want to tell me because I might tell the whole world? What a powerful message. I know that something I am working on is holding my tongue, learning when, what, and where to say things and not to say things, what things need be kept secret between my spouse and me and what things I can share. I should ask permission before sharing certain things with specific people. Ok, now I need to find out what I need to do so that my husband can feel like he can trust me 150%. I trust the Lord and my husband that much, but do I have the same trust from my husband? I know that as a wife I do not always do and say things to enrich the life of  Hubs. I try not to bring him harm purposefully , but thinking about it when I nag him, or get upset with him  for going to play ball with his friends instead of being home with me and the kids am I not being harmful? I may not be harming him physically but am I harming him emotionally, or perhaps spiritually? The last thing I want to do is harm him spiritually. He is the spiritual leader in our house and I want him to be a Man of God. Can he be the Man of God wants him to be if I am not being the Woman of God that I am supposed to be? I need to demonstrate to my girls how be an encouraging wife who enriches the life of her husband by drawing close to the Lord, and by making sure he can truly and fully trust me. How many marriages would be different or saved if husband and wives both learned to Encourage & Enrich the lives of their spouse? How much different will my marriage be and how much will I impact the life of my husband in the long run for the things I am doing short term that will turn into long term? How is the way that I approach my husband with Love, Encouragement, and Enrichment affect the way my girls approach their future spouse? My goal is that I can teach my girls this now, so they aren't married and then figuring this out but that they go into the marriage already being a virtuous woman. Wow all of that from 2 verses in the Old Testament of all places ;) Wow how the Lord will use will me.  I am hoping this journey gets to continue and helps me grow. I am proud to be on this amazing journey to be more virtuous.

~Samantha

Prayer:

Lord, I come to you today as a precious jewel, let my life shine like that of all the jewels. Lord help me to give my husband reason to put all his trust in me and if there is a reason he cannot, let us work through it with you, because only you Lord can change our hearts and minds. Lead me to encourage my Husband Lord, do not let me purposefully or not purposefully drag him down, spiritually, emotionally, or physically but be a source of enrichment and encouragement in his life on a daily basis. Lord I pray for G, H, and C that they will see me trying to become a virtuous woman and they will strive in their lives to be woman of virtue and will understand why it is important to encourage and enrich the lives of their future husbands. I lift of the boys who will someday be the spouses of my girls, that you work in their lives and help them to be the MEN of God that they will need to be. Lord help me to the woman of virtue you have designed me to be. Thank you for showing me what a virtuous woman is and for the desire to study and share what I am learning about being a virtuous woman of God.AMEN.

This is Hubs, with "G" the one standing and "H" This is why I have decided to take this journey. I want to encourage and enrich his life as my Husband daily.

"C" being as adorable as ever